im not okay

obviously hindi ako okay... wala lang gusto ko lang magsulat, i-release ang tension... 27 years old na ako pero feeling ko walang nangyayari sa buhay ko... i hate what's happening with my life right now!!! wala akong very compensating work... i have a lousy supervisor and i dont have a life after work... grabe masmalala pa ito sa suicide... gggrrr!!!

its mah birthday

yes yes yes... its mah 27th birthday... well, im on leave sa work since yesterday tapos ngayon naman off ako sa tindahan... after more or less 10 years, finally nag-sunday din ako sa bahay... na-miss ko manood ng noontime show sa tv... natatandaan ko pa nga before, napapanood ko pa ang anakarenina... nothing much this time... simba lang sa umaga to thank God for a year full of blessings and lessons in life and for another year filled with happiness, peace of mind and prosperity tapos luto ng dinner... hhhmm...siguro pancit canton and tinurbong manok na lang siguro para madali... :D

my first work

july 1, 2010 marks my first day at work at laus group holdings as internal audit assistant... at first it was boring because i am paid to read the policies and procedures manual for two weeks to be familiar with the company's procedure...
third week came and this week starts my hell days... as in totally hell days... and my superior suckssssss!!!! imagine, this is my first job and i dont have any idea how to devise an audit program and she wants me to create one!!!! one more thing, she told me to go to my auditee to get some documents without any clear instructions regarding the do's and donts... after an hour with my auditee because she gave me an overview of their operations and not having the documents i should get since they dont retain a copy of such document, she told me that, "ininterview mo lang pala si Ma'am **... since we are the in audit, we should be independent from the rest. Our auditee should not have any idea that they are already under audit." After hearing those words from my superior, i want to tell her that if you only accompanied me to Ma'am ** none of this will happend...
honestly i dont like my superior... aside from she does not give any clear instructions regarding what should i do... she is also sososososo unapprochable, always naka-bungisngis as if everyday is her menstruation day... super very unlike... wanna go out... please.... Meralco pwede bang tumawag ka na???

passing the CPA board examinations

its been quite a while after my last post and i missed writing actually... i dont know if i have improved... nevertheless, its relaxing to release the emotions once in a while...

after half a year of preparations, religiously studying and reviewing for the exams... at this point in time, i can say that i made it... im already a certified public accountant...

our reviewer at CPAR told us that the results will be released by 12nn... the day the results were released, i was at the Orthopedic Hospital for my check up... it was already 12 nn and no one is texting me... as i remembered, i was nervous and afraid back then... at 12.30pm my friend, Marvin texted me, congratulating me that i passed the exam... after hearing the news, i cried because of happiness... that after so many preparations, this time i already passed...

at that time, im wondering what would happend next... passing the exams marks the end of my college life... no more allowance from mudra... in short i'll be starting to earn money of my own...

super high

first pre board exam namin last february 13-14... yes valentine's day, sakit ng ulo ang inabot ko kakasabot ng questions sa exam...

and after one week of waiting... lumabas na ang results... nasa top 100 ako... 94th to be exact... grabe ang saya-saya ko... gusto ko sumigaw kasi lahat ng pagpupuyat ko nagbunga ng magandang resulta... habang nag-uumpisa pa lang yung review, sabi ko sa sarili ko since na 2nd review ko na ito at ang mga kasabayan ko ay puros first timers, dapat umangat ako... nakakahiya naman kung bagsak pa din ako ngayon... kaya nagaral ako ng mabuti... giving more attention to the subjects na talagang bagsak ako last board exams... and hindi naman ako nagkamali... okay naman ang resulta diba...

siguro nakatulong din sa akin ito kasi, may isa lang akong napansin sa sarili ko on those exam days... im confident na i can nail the exams... nung nakita ko na yung test paper ko, di ako nagpatalo sa kaba and sa idea na i would lose this battle... sagot lang ng sagot... ubusin ang alloted time para sa exam... napansin ko din yon sa mga previous exams ko sa undergrad, na kapag confident ako na hindi ako kinakabahan, matataas ang score ko... kasi alam ko yung pinag-aralan ko, naiintindihan ko...

nakakahiya man aminin, i also resorted to luck... diba chinese new year yung february 14... kaya lahat ng pwede kong isuot na color red, sinuot ko!!!!! nail polish ko red, undies ko red tapos shirt ko maroon (at least shade of red pa din)... and sabi nila bago sumapit ang chinese new year, magpa-make over ka... kaya ayon nagpafoot-spa, mani-pedi and haircut ako... hehehe... siguro hindi naman masama yon basta ang importante, i've done my part by studying my lessons well...

sana magpatuloy pa yung ganitong resulta hanggang board exam proper...

meeting her the second time

well the girl im referring to is my cousin (mother's side)... the first time we met was not that good (her mother was in a critical condition and chit-chatting and be in a happy mode is her the end of her list)... after more than a decade, we had a chance to meet... nanay texted me to meet her and invite her to our place (pampanga)...

we rode a bus going to pampanga and talked almost the whole travelling time and we had dinner at tempura with emilie...

meeting ate simone was an opportunity i may say... actually its a rate opportunity because she is from cebu and meeting as regular as we could would just be too costly... thanks to the technology - internet and cellfone... it really connects people...

valentine's day 2010

well kakaiba ang celebration ko ng v-day ngayon since na may exam ako ... pero hindi pwedeng matapos ang araw na hindi ko makikita ang taong pinakamamahal ko... of course valentines day ngayon... parang halo-halo ang araw na ito -special... a special day for a special person... ;p

simple lang ang date namin ni papa mike... dinner lang sa chinese resto... walang flowers ngayon eventhough i expected at first pero i do understand naman kasi cost cutting... siya ang bread winner sa bahay nila ngayon... kesa ibili pa nya ng bulaklak, ilaan na lang nya sa mas-importanteng bagay... there would always be next time and i believe there are other ways he could show that im special... not just by giving flowers...

review life the second time around

i'm in a review mode for the second time around for almost three months... compared to my previous review, i may strongly say that i improved... i am more focused... giving priority to the subjects which i had faillng grades... more patient in answering problems and more determined to finally fulfill my dream... as they say in Filipino "kung walang nilaga, walang aanihin", hopefully these hardships would have good results

a view of the past

since saturdays lang ang uwi ko galing manila... nakita ko ang results ng recent cpa board exams... pinadala sa bahay ang official results ng board exam... and ngayon lang na-realize ang panghihinayang ko... kaunti na lang yon... sana pinagbutihan ko yung isang subject, sana conditional inabot ko... gggrrr!!!