while i was waiting for the results... hindi ko maintindihan ang feeling... excited na kinakabahan... buti na lang busy ako renewing my driver's license... the verdict hour came... (15:00) at kinakabahan ako... hindi mo naman na maiiaalis na somehow na umasa kang papasa kasi you worked hard for it... na hindi ka na natutulog... wala na ring lakwatsa at gala days... puros aral na lang talaga
the moment i learned that i failed... gusto kong umiyak... kaso ayaw lumabas ng luha ko siguro dahil kausap ko pa mga kaklase ko... pero when i talked to my tatay... doon na... walang ka-effort-effort... tumulo na lang ang luha ko... at kahit pinipigilan ko... parang it so relieving at that time na umiyak ako... gusto ko din sumigaw at magmura kaso i promised na hindi na ko magmumura just for the sake of expression...
this time para akong nabroken hearted na on denial stage pa... na kung detachable lang ang puso... sana inalis mo na muna para hindi mo maramdaman ang sakit at that very moment crying will be your best friend... to release the tension as well as the stress...
ngayon... hindi ko pa alam kung paano tatayo... ang alam ko kelangan ko ulit magtake ng board exams by may... pero wala pa kong concrete plan...
kung gaano ka-distort ang entry ko... ganoon din ako ngayon... i hope i could recover soon because until now it really hurts... im still asking ano ba ang ginawa nila na hindi ko ginawa na bakit sila pumasa ako hindi...
the moment i learned that i failed... gusto kong umiyak... kaso ayaw lumabas ng luha ko siguro dahil kausap ko pa mga kaklase ko... pero when i talked to my tatay... doon na... walang ka-effort-effort... tumulo na lang ang luha ko... at kahit pinipigilan ko... parang it so relieving at that time na umiyak ako... gusto ko din sumigaw at magmura kaso i promised na hindi na ko magmumura just for the sake of expression...
this time para akong nabroken hearted na on denial stage pa... na kung detachable lang ang puso... sana inalis mo na muna para hindi mo maramdaman ang sakit at that very moment crying will be your best friend... to release the tension as well as the stress...
ngayon... hindi ko pa alam kung paano tatayo... ang alam ko kelangan ko ulit magtake ng board exams by may... pero wala pa kong concrete plan...
kung gaano ka-distort ang entry ko... ganoon din ako ngayon... i hope i could recover soon because until now it really hurts... im still asking ano ba ang ginawa nila na hindi ko ginawa na bakit sila pumasa ako hindi...
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chu just keep trying... take it from me... kaya natin yan... it hurts damn badly but it will hurt a lot more if we just stop trying... so take some time to compose yourself tas laban tayo ulit ha? i'll see you soon..mis u na
"Life is like a game of tennis. You have no choice over how that ball comes to you, but it's how you hit it back that counts."
- Don't Stop Believing
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