62nd monthsary

last 110808, mike and i celebrated our 62nd monthsary (5 years and 2 months)... even though we're on our fifth year and we're not teenagers (feeling teens lang) anymore, we still want to celebrate our monthsary because we want to look forward to something every month... but contrary to new lovers who also celebrate monthsary, we do not regularly give gifts since it would be expensive and it would ruin the thrill of receiving gifts during special occasions.

i came first to our agreed place, sm pampanga... while waiting, i bought a glass of coke for mike since i know that he's tired of the long travel and to tell him that i really appreciate his effort to go to pampanga... imagine mike came from cainta, rizal and every saturday he would just go to pampanga to see me...it would take him two hours travelling time from cainta to pampanga not to mention its cost...

it's almost 12 noon when he arrived, so we took our lunch at savory... after eating, i gave him my love letter, i know it sounds cheap but i think that would be the most loving gift i could give because i gave my time to it and i let my heart speak out and tell mike that how much i love him...

by 5 pm, we decided to buy viand for dinner... we opted for roasted chicken of sabels...then we went home... while cooking rice, reheating the roasted chicken and setting the table, we watched wrestling as what we normally do (we see to it that by 6pm we are already in front of the television because wwe starts at 6pm)...

by 8pm, we're already finished eating and cleaning the kitchen, out of the blue, i got curious with mike's cellphones... i read his inbox messages and saw three text messages coming from carol... (this is our conversation as far as i could remember)

Chu: sino tong carol na to?
Mike: my love, wag mong basahin yan, baka makita mo pa yung ibang text ng mga chicks ko...
Chu: sino nga ito eh?
Mike: Ito my love pakita ko yung mga picture... (he showed me the pictures) kasi yung babaeng yan patay na patay sa akin tapos kursonada sya ng officemate ko... para inggitin yung officemate ko, nagpakuha kami ng picture... madami kami magkakasama nyan kumain my love...
Chu: meron pa bang iba?
Mike: wala na po my love... jelly ka ba my love? wag ka my love kasi kaw lang love ko and panget yon, kaw maganda, pero mas sexy sya sa yo...
Chu: okay lang na mas sexy sya pero masmaganda naman ako sa kanya at mas di hamak na masmukha akong bata kaysa sa kanya noh... sige oras na hatid na kita sa bus station...

so i drove him to the bus station and went straight home... after arriving our house, i texted mike that im home already... i know that he knows that im mad and there are "bugging different points/ideas" inside my head so he keeps on clarifying that he is doing nothing wrong and he assures me that he is straight and im the only one...

somehow after that five long years being together, sharing the ups and downs of another, experiencing different phases of a relationship, i know that i don't have to worry at all... panatag ako na hindi ako ginagago ng boyfriend ko... may tiwala ako sa kanya... pero kung magkamali man ako sa paniniwala kong ito, siyempre malulungkot ako pero magpapasalamat din ako kasi as early as now, nalaman ko na he is not meant for me, im still young and there are millions of sharks better than him that is very much willing to take his place (hope so...)i sounded like too palaban, but that is the reality...